While I did have a great time on the cruise,… old issues reared their ugly head. At first we were the lovey dovey couple that were sickening to watch. By the end of the trip I was on the verge of tears. We went on this trip with Jen/Alex and at dinner were joined by another young couple. I definitely noticed that the girl of the other couple wasn’t drinking, but I guess I just figured she didn’t drink. Of course somewhere in me I knew she was pregnant. She announced it to us at dinner the last night and it just sent my mind a reeling. I don’t think I reacted at dinner, but inside, was all a jumble. When I told Cowboy how I felt, he took it as I was upset with him or that he did something that sent me into this emotional spiral. It wasn’t that, but his actions, us not having activities very much at all on the boat just added to the pile of emotional crud that I was going through. That whole, act like you’re a romantic, lovey husband in front of friends and not touch me when we’re alone. WTF?
I was glad to be home and visited with my best gf when we settled in. She actually joined us at bingo the night we got back in town. She missed me so. LOL.
Of course in true Lorie fashion, I avoided talking about it and instead hit the gym hard once the work week started. Activities ceased upon our return back to town. That’ll solve the problem, right? At one point Cowboy did say something, like, “What’s up with you? What’s wrong?”
My smartass response was so fab, “Well I’m not a mystery. It’s the same problem it always is. No sex.” End scene.
In his defense, he was sick and probably trying his best to recover to normal, but his not going to the doctor didn’t help. Activities have commenced this week, but the lulls are so not my favorite. In happier news, my skin is looking fab. Methinks the gym is helping sweat out all those toxins. Melikey silky smooth skin, yo.
I’m sure I’m part of the problem, but I can’t be the entire problem, I hope. We also got a puppy. He’s a white lab and just the cutest thing ever. Quiet, playful and so sweet. He needs a bath desperately. He was neutered so we couldn’t give him a bath for two weeks, but today is bathtime. Methinks Cowboy is testing my mothering skills.