November 21, 2011
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Chats with mumsy
I really love these. She always manages to give me perspective, crack me up and get through to the very core of who I am.
Lately, I’ve been asking about my Dad more. Counseling has made me face the issues I’ve had with him over the years. I love my Dad, I just don’t understand him sometimes, ok all the time. Naturally, I have to take everything my Mom says with a grain of salt. I know she still loves my Dad despite however he wronged her. That amazes me sometimes. At the party for my Grandma, my Dad’s first wife showed up. True, she lives in town, but she was dressed to kill, my friends. Cougar-licious dress, high heels. Eat your heart out, Dad. I love her for that.
On one of our walks, (Cowboy and I come over to visit during football games) my mom and I go for walks when the guys yell at the tv for an afternoon, she asked about Martin. She was asking about his family. It’s always interesting how your family shapes who you are and how you deal with others. With me and M, he always counted the minutes with my family. I explained the why to my mom on one of our walks. M, lost his mom at a young age, was raised by his grandparents, and found out over the years that his parents stayed together after they dropped him off with the grandparents. He was envious of the relationship I had with my mom and fought me at every turn because of it. I did let him drive a wedge between me and my mom and I’m so thankful Cowboy doesn’t do that. When he asks to visit, I’m so happy to oblige. He gets male bonding time with my brothers/stepfather and I get mommy time. Brother’s gf coming over is usually a bonus. I’m still crossing my fingers for that to happen, for her to be my future sister in law.
Another one of our chats was related to me/weight loss surgery. She was telling me how she wants to have another plastic surgery. My mom is already hot mom, I don’t think she needs the next surgery she wants. She wants her neck tightened. I’m going to need her to look like a grandmother when I have babies, not my sister. I’ve had my final consult with the doc as it relates to my surgery but I’m still on the fence. Even though I know I’m not at a healthy weight to conceive, I don’t like hearing that I have to wait 18 months to get pregnant. And be on BC again? Menolikey. I’m a crazy person on BC.
In other news, I’ve been driving the truck to work. Of course, Cowboy has more than a few not nice things to say about that. It’s his favorite thing to fight about. I can hardly wait to go back to counseling to discuss this and an entire host of things. Like me prancing around in panties all day Saturday as I did laundry and getting absolutely no attention for it.
Comments (3)
i didnt know you were contemplating surgery..
I certainly appreciate the chats with mom much better now that I’m an adult.
If you think about it do you do it often enough to constitute being on BC for 18 months? I mean… his weight also can affect his little swimmers too.
I would stay on the BCP, because it might actually help you conceive, with the whole regulate your cycle bit (at least this is what I have repeatedly heard on baby having sites). And lord knows, you dont need to wait 6 months of being off BCP to get pregnant.
BUT… if the pill makes you crazy, have you considered a progesterone only pill? Thats what I take because I’m nursing (and also what I was taking when I got knocked up with DiDi). They are slightly less effective than an estrogen/progest combo pill, but they have far less side effects. I take joulivette. (do not mix with herbal teas… you get babies)